The Life & Crazy Times Of Lensy Muthafucking Ross

TO LOOK SOMEONE IN THEIR EYES AND NOT SEE JUDGEMENT IS ONE OF THE UTMOST CONTRIBUTIONS SOMEONE CAN GIVE ME. TO NOT SEE JUDGEMENT IS TO SEE A GENUINE PERSON, SOMEONE THAT DOESN'T WANT TO PLAY THE ROLE OF GOD, BUT WANTS TO HELP ME. THAT IS WHERE TRUE LOVE LIES FOR ME. DID U EVER LOOK SOMEONE IN THEIR EYES AND IT HURTS U MORE THAN ANYTHING THEY COULD VERBALIZE. THAT'S HOW I KNOW I LOST U, AND IN A SENSE MYSELF. I CAN'T REALLY HOLD U ACCOUTABLE, BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE R FOLLOWERS AND GET CAUGHT UP IN WHAT PEOPLE THINK OR SAY. THERE HOWEVER, HOPEFULLY WON'T BE A COMPROMISE IN MY CHARACTER FOR ANYONE. I DON'T REALLY EVER SAY MUCH IN THE BEGINNING, AND IN A SENSE I'VE LEARNED TO RELY ON IT AS MY COMMUNICATION (VISUALS). ANOTHER PROBLEM IS EVERYTHING IS LEFT UP IN THE AIR, AND DORMANT. JUST KNOW THAT A BATTLE FOR THE TRUTH, RELIES SIMPLE ON HOW MUCH U WANT IT, AND ALSO THAT I HAVE A STRONG CHANCE OF WINNING, AND U WALKING OUT LEFT UNSETTLING DILUTED. I MAY SEE WHAT UR THINKIN' AND U WANT TO ASK, AND I ANSWER BACK IN THE SAME WAY I WAS QUESTIONED, WITHOUT ANY FEELING OR CARE, BLANK. THE ONLY PROBLEM IS UR LEFT WITH A FEELING OF UNFINISHED REGRET, BUT I KEEP GOING FULL FORCE WHILE UR LEFT THINKING ABOUT ME OR SOMEONE ELSE......I COULDN'T DO IT WITHOUT SECURITY, WHICH IS WHAT KEEPS ME GOING, KEEPS ME FEELING AT PEACE WITH MYSELF. MY WEIGHT OF STRENGTH DOESN'T RECLINE IN A PHYSICAL SENSE, BUT WHEATHER A PERSON CAN STAND UP, AND RISE TO THEIR RESPONSIBILTY OF LIVING AND LEARNING. I DON'T REALLY BELIEVE U CAN BE TWO THINGS AT ONCE, AND TO BE A CRITIC, IS TO WATCH, WHICH IS WHAT I DON'T WANT TO DO. WE SPEND SO MUCH TIME SUBSIDING EVERYTHING, THAT WE NEVER TAKE A CHANCE TO GROW, AND BUILD WITH EACH OTHER. SOMETIMES U HAVE TO LOSE TO WIN. CAN U LET UR PRIDE GO, AND BE HONEST WITH NOT ONLY SOMEONE ELSE BUT URSELF. THE PROBLEM WITH LIES IS, WHEN U TELL PEOPLE THEM, U DO THE SAME TO URSELF, WHICH IS WEAKNESS FOR ME. I LEAVE U WITH THE FACT, THAT UR EYES COULD NEVER BE THE ANSWER, BECAUSE THE TRUTH CAN'T BE SEEN IT CAN ONLY BE CONFIRMED.~LOVE LENSY. {REMEMBER THAT WE'RE ALL IN LOVE WITH THE LIES WE TELL OURSELVES!}~BUT FOR ONCE LOVE THE TRUTH!

I HAVE COME TO REALIZE THAT I COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT FORGIVING. IT'S CRAZY HOW U CAN BECOME ENGULFED IN A SOMEWHAT UNINTENTIONAL PAIN AND BURDEN, IN WHICH U BECOME MISERABLE. IT'S A LOT MORE DIFFUCULT TO DO THE RIGHT THING VERSUS DOING THE WRONG THING FOR ME. WHEN U STEP OUTSIDE OF WHAT U KNOW, THAT'S WHEN U REALIZE WHAT LIFE IS ALL ABOUT. WHEN U CHALLENGE UR LIFE, DOESN'T IT SEEM SOMEWHAT MORE MEANINGFUL? TO QUESTION WHY WE R HERE, SHOWS WHERE U LIE, BUT TO ANSWER WHY WE R HERE, SHOWS THAT U LIVED. I KNOW WHY I'M HERE, DO U? WHATS THE POINT OF SEARCHING 4 SOMETHING IF U DON'T NEED OR WANT THE ANSWER. I'VE LEARNED THAT LIFE WASN'T THE BITCH, IT WAS ME ALL ALONG. U NEVER REALLY R ABLE TO BE HAPPY WITH URSELF OR GROW BECAUSE UR DRIVEN BY AN ANGUISH THAT SOMEONE ELSE HAS PLACED ON U. I SEE NOW THAT THEY WHERE ANGRY WITH THEMSELVES. THEY WANTED SOMETHING I HAD, THEY WANTED TO FIND A WEAKNESS TO USE IT AGAINST ME. I'VE LEARNED THAT WHEN I TOLD MY SELF "THEY ARE MESSING WITH ME FOR NO REASON", THAT THERE IN FACT WAS A REASON. U COME TO LEARN THAT WHEN PEOPLE R ATTACKING U, THEY'RE ATTACKING THEMSELVES. THAT'S WHY WHEN SOMEONE SAYS SOMETHING, I LAUGH, CAUSE THEIR A JOKE. U LEARN THAT FORGIVING, IS THE ABILITY TO NOT LET ANYONE TAKE OVER U AND UR WELL BEING. THE TRUTH (4 EXAMPLE) PEOPLE WANT IT IN A BLACK OR WHITE SYSTEM, BUT THE TRUTH IS IN COLOR. THIS IS WHY SOME PEOPLE AREN'T TOLD THE TRUTH BECAUSE THEY WANT TO SIMPLIFY THE TRUTH, MEANING MAKE IT WHAT IT'S NOT. WE CAN GET SO LOST IN THE TRANSLATION OF LIFE, BUT WE'RE ALL THE SAME. WE ALL WANT THE SAME THINGS, WE JUST GO ABOUT GETTING IT DIFFERENTLY. OPTIMISM BECOMES SOMEWHAT UNREACHABLE IN A WORLD FULL OF NEGATIVITY, BUT FIND IT, U NEED IT. STOP DREAMING AND START LIVING. WE GET SO CAUGHT IN OUR DREAMS THAT WE JUST WANT TO FALL ASLEEP. I HOPE U FIND COMFORT IN MY WORDS, AND NOT AN UNAWARENESS.~LOVE LENSY

Not stupid questions like "How old are you?"

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?:
IT DEFINITELY DEPENDS, WHEN I AM TELLING SOMEONE THE TRUTH I LOOK THEM IN THEIR EYES, AND WHEN SOMEONE IS TELLING ME, IT DEPENDS IF I FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE I LOOK EVERYWHERE ELSE, SO MAKE SURE I LIKE U! BELIEVE ME, U'LL KNOW

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. Why were you angry?
THE LAST TIME WAS WHEN TI-CHINA TRIED TO RIPE MY HEAD OFF, BUT THATS BEHIND US!

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You get enough time to make ONE phone call. Who would you call?:
NO ONE! I'LL TRY TO TALK 2 GOD!

4. You are at the doctor's office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. (1) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? (2) What do you do with your remaining days? (3) Would you be afraid?:
1. I WOULDN'T TELL ANYONE, PROBABLY TI-CHINA FIRST!
2. I'D WOULD PROBABLY MAKE A LIST OF ALL THE THINGS 2 DO AND JUST FOCUS OF LIVING, LAUGHING, AND LOVING!
3. PROBABLY, IT WOULD MAKE LIFE HARDER ON  ME. I WOULD TRY NOT 2 THINK ABOUT IT, BUT I WOULD TALK 2 GOD, I GUESS. I REALLY CAN'T SAY IM NOT IN THAT POSITION!

5. You can have one of the following two things- trust/love. Which do you choose?:
WITHOUT TRUST THERES NO LOVE AND WITHOUT LOVE THERES NO TRUST. BUT I GUESS I'D PICK TRUST CAUSE BY DEFAULT LOVE WOULD COME.

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. Do you save the dog?:
SAVE THE DOG IF I CAN, I WOULD CONCENTRATE ON IT BEING ME, I ALWAYS PUT MYSELF IN OTHER PEOPLES SHOES!

7. You are unfaithful to your boyfriend/girlfriend. ..Do you tell him/her?:
YES, IT, HOWEVER WON'T HAPPEN. WHEN UR HOOKED, AND IN LOVE EVERYONE ELSE SEEMS TARNISHED. NO ONE LOOKS THE SAME BECAUSE UR TO FOCUSED ON WHAT UR BOO JUST DID. UR FOCUSED ON UR HAPPINESS EVEN WHEN UR MAD. UR FOCUSED ON THE OTHER DAY WHEN U MADE LOVE, AND HOW U CAN FEEL EVERYTHING AND REMEMBER IT ALL AS IF U WHERE THERE. ITS JUST DIFFERENT.

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give one year of your life. Do you do it?:
I DON'T REMEMBER BUT PROBABLY NOT. WHEN ITS UR TIME ITS UR TIME! AND THEN TO KNOW U'LL LOSE THEM IN AN HOUR!

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?:
YES, I GIVE MY ALL IN ANY RELATIONSHIP I CARE ABOUT.

11. Does love = sex?
NO, TWO COMPLETELY DIFFERENT THINGS. SEX IS AN INHIBITION OF HIDING. WHEN U MAKE LOVE THERE IS A UNISON THAT CAN'T BE SUNG OR FELT ANY OTHER WAY. THERE IS NO CONDOM, WHICH TO ME, IS A PREVENTION OF NOT JUST PREGNANCY OR STD'S BUT U URSELF. ITS EYE CONTACT TO THE DEPTH OF SUBMISSION. ITS AN SEXUAL CLIMATE FROM BEGININNING TO END AT ITS HIGHEST OF HIGHS. ITS THE BEST JOB U'LL EVER PUT FORTH WITH A PAYMENT THAT NEEDS NO CALCULATION. YEAH, LOL.
12. Your boss tells your co-worker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your co-worker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company?:
HONESTLY, NO. THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON.

13. When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you feel?:
TI-CHINA!

14. What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or tell them you hate them?:
HARDER TO TELL THEM I HATE THEM. HATE TO ME HAS BECOME SOMEWHAT NUMB. SAYING IT HAS NO HARSHER VALUE THAN MAKING SOMEONE FEEL U MEAN IT. HATE IS A VERY POWERFUL WORD I HAVE LEARNED, BECAUSE IF ITS THE OPPOSITE OF LOVE, WHICH IS SOMETHING I KNOW ALL ABOUT, THEN THATS DEEP.

15. What do you think would be/is the hardest thing for you to give
up?:
ME, AS A PERSON, TO BE A MAN, WELL JUST ME AND VULNERABLE.

16. Excluding family/ friend, when was the last time you told someone you love them?:
TI-CHINA!

17. If you had to go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?:
MY KID YEARS! I WISH I COULD HAVE A CONVERSATION WITH MY FIVE YEAR OLD SELF!

18. Imagine. It is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside. What are you doing?:
THINKING AND SEARCHING FOR SOMETHING LIKE ALWAYS.

19. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying?:
I DON'T KNOW, I'D PROBABLY CALL FOR HELP

20. If you could do anything OR wish anything, what would it be?
THE FIRST THING THAT CAME TO MIND WAS......

I SEE A FEAR AND INSECURITY THAT IS A MANIFESTATION OF NEGATIVITY. HATE TOWARD ME,  IS A CRY FOR SOMETHING U WISH TO SEE IN URSELF, FREEDOM. UR ACTIONS BRING THESE INSUCURITIES TO LIGHT. I'M ONLY DOING ONE THING U WON'T, LIVE. WHO I AM IS RIGHT IN FRONT OF U. WHEN A PERSON MAKES THINGS BLACK OR WHITE HE OR SHE IS SIMPLY GREY. IT'S FINE TO RUN MY NAME THROUGH THE DIRT BECAUSE I'LL PICK IT UP WITH A SMILE AND WASH IT ALONG WITH URS. REMEMBER, THAT I'M HERE AND UR ALONG WITH ME, SO WHERE EXACTLY DOES THAT PUT U INTERNALLY. U CAN HAVE UR INTERPRETATION, BUT THE THING ABOUT PERCEPTIONS IS THAT U CAN BECOME CONSUMED IN THESE FALSE OR UNCONFIRMED ACCUSATIONS TO MAKE URSELF FEEL BETTER OR FIND URSELF, AND TO FIND URSELF THIS WAY IS THE WORST BUILD UP OF ALL. TO LOSE A SENSE OF URSELF IS TO LOSE URSELF COMPLETELY. THERE IS NO TRUE AND SIGNIFICANT BASE, NO STANDARDS, FOUNDATION. MISERY NEEDS COMPANY SO, I LET IT BE UR FRIEND. SO THE NEXT TIME SOMEONE IS BEING NEGATIVE, LAUGH AND WALK AWAY, BECAUSE U'LL SEE THAT THIS IS THE GREATEST REVENGE OR PAIN U'LL CAUSE. IT'S A WORK IN PROGRESS, BUT U'LL SEE.

THAT IT WILL NEVER GIVE U THE CARDS U WANT WHEN UR GAMBLING. THAT EVEN THOUGH U MAY NOT RECIEVE WHAT U WANTED, WHAT U NEEDED, GOD HAS SOMETHING PLANNED FOR U. I'VE LEARNED WHO I AM AND WHAT A REAL FRIEND IS. I'VE LEARNED THAT EVERYONE WANTS TO KNOW ABOUT U, AND IF THEY HAVE NOTHING THEY OVERLY EXPAND THEIR PERCEPTIONS. I'VE LEARNED TO CHERISH THE PEOPLE I HAVE. I LOVE ME AND AT THE END OF THE DAY IT MAKES ME SEE THINGS DIFFERENTLY. LIFE GIVES U THE ANSWERS IF U STOP CRYING AND OPEN UP UR EYES TO SEE EVERYTHING THATS RIGHT IN FRONT OF U. I'VE LEARNED THAT IF SOMEONE DOESN'T RESPECT ME, THEY CAN'T RESPECT THEMSELVES OR WHATS REAL. I'VE LEARNED WHAT I WANT OUT OF LIFE AND THAT I MIGHT NOT GET IT. I'VE LEARNED THAT MOST PEOPLE ALWAYS SEE THAT PERSON U WHERE WHEN U MET, BUT THAT CHANGE IS REALITY. I'VE LEARNED THAT LOVE ISN'T BLIND BECAUSE PEOPLE CONFUSE IT WITH LUST. LOVE MAKES U OPEN UR EYES SO U CAN SEE WHAT U HAVE, AND SO U WON'T LET ANYONE TAKE IT AWAY. I'VE LEARNED THAT LOVE NEVER TURNS BAD, JUST TH PEOPLE AND SITUATIONS THEY ENCOUNTER. I'VE LEARNED THAT I'M VULNERABLE AND DON'T MIND BEING USED. I'VE LEARNED TO FORGIVE, FORGET, AND LET GO. I'VE LEARNED THAT PEOPLE FOCUS ON U SO MUCH THAT THEY CAN'T SEE WHO THEY REALLY ARE. I'VE LEARN THAT PEOPLE ARE JEALOUS WHEN U HAVE SOMETHING U DON'T HAVE. I'VE LEARNED TO BE UNDERSTANDING AND HAVE A RESPECT OF WHY PEOPLE R THE WAY THEY R. I'VE LEARNED THAT NOT EVERYONE WANTS TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER. I'VE LEARNED THT IN ORDER TO BE GREAT U MUST BE BAD BUT GROW OUT OF IT. I LEARNED THAT SPIRITUALITY IS THE STRENGTH TO MAKING IT IN LIFE. I'VE LEARNED THAT LAUGHTER IS THE KEY TO THE BASEMENT THAT HIDES THE PAIN. I'VE LEARNED THAT AN INSPIRATION IN PEOPLE IS THE KEY TO MAKING OUR RELATIONSHIP GROW WEATHER GOOD OR BAD. I'VE LEARNED THAT I DON'T GIVE A FUCK WHAT PEOPLE THINK OR UNDERSTAND BECAUSE AT THE END OF THE DAY U OWE NO ONE ANY OBLIGATIONS UNLESS U MAKE AN OBLIGATION TO SOMEONE. I'VE LEARNED THAT EVERYONE HAS AN OBSTACLE TO GET OVER AND THAT U DON'T LET IT STOP U. U KEEP GOING, THATS IMPORTANT U HONESTLY GIVE UR ALL AND KEEP GOING. I LEARNED THAT IF UR READING THIS U CAN EITHER CARE ABOUT ME OR WANT TO HURT ME. I'VE LEARNED THAT WITHOUT THE CURVES AND DEAD ENDS PEOPLE SEND U TO, LIFE WOULDN'T BE THE SAME. I'VE LEARNED THAT I DON'T BELIEVE IN IF ITS MEANT TO BE IT'LL BE. U CONTROL UR DESTINY. I'VE LEARNED THAT U CAN'T CONTROL SOMEONES HEART, BUT THAT WE ALL ALWAYS WANT A CHANCE. I'VE LEARNED WE'RE ALL IN LOVE WITH THE LIES WE TELL OURSELVES. I'VE LEARNED THAT PEOPLE CONFUSE CURIOSITY WITH FLIRTING. I'VE LEARNED THAT THE EYES R THE WINDOW TO THE PERSON AND WHEN U CAPTURE IT, DON'T LET GO. I'VE LEARN TO NOT LIVE IN REGRET OR FOCUS ON THE NEGATIVE BECAUSE U MISS OUT ON LIFE AND LIVING. I'VE LEARNED THAT IM COMPLEX, IF U DON'T HAVE A CONCEPT OF TRYING TO PUT MY PUZZLE TOGETHER. I'VE LEARNED THAT I'M LOOKING FOR EVERYTHING I DON'T HAVE. I'VE LEARNED TO LEAVE EVERYONE WANTING MORE...............................LENSY MUTHAFUCKING ROSS

1. you & your most recent ex: WHO GIVES A FUCK:I AGREE!
2. I am listening to: COLLEGE STUDENTS TALKIN' ABOUT THEIR ~SHITTY~ PROBLEMS
3. maybe i should : GET IT 2GETHER.
4. I love: ME
5. I don't understand: Y PEOPLE R SO CONSUMED WITH BEING FOLLOWERS
6. I have lost my respect for: NO ONE NO ONE NO ONEEEEEEEEEEEE WHO AM I TO JUDGE.
7. I last ate: CHIPS AND LEMONADE.
8. Tomorrow I'm: GOING BACK TO JERSEY.
9. Love is: WE'RE ALWAYS GOING TO BE FRIENDS, LOVE IS A COMPLEMENTARY EFFECT, LOVE IS I DON'T HAVE IT BUT IM WORKIN TOWARDS MAKIN U HAPPY, MAKIN US HAPPY, LOVE IS SACRIFICE, LOVE IS HAPPINESS, LOVE IS FULLFILLMENT, LOVE IS PASSION, LOVE IS CONSUMING, LOVE IS PATIENCE, LOVE IS A GIFT FROM GOD, LOVE IS BEAUTY, THE TINGLES THAT NEVER GO AWAY, LOVE MAKES U OPEN UR EYES, LOVE MAKES U BUY THINGS JUST BECAUSE, LOVE MAKES U BOTH APOLOGIZE, LOVE IS SLOW AND DEEP, LOVE IS A NEVER ENDING ORGASMS, LOVE IS THE SMILE U GET WHEN THEY WALK AROUND THE CORNER, LOVE IS SOMEHING U GET LOST IN, LOVE IS LOOKIN AT EVERY OTHER PERSON DIFFERENT, LOVE IS SEXY, LOVE IS COMPLICATED, LOVE IS WORK, LOVE IS NOT BYE BUT I'LL SEE U LATER, LOVE CAN'T BE MATERIALIZED, LOVE IS HONESTY, LOVE IS RESPECT, LOVE IS THE BEST, LOVE IS LOVE, LOVE IS LAUGHTER, LOVE HAS ME ON THIS WALL SMILING, LOVE IS POTENTIAL, LOVE IS HAPPY, LOVE IS SECURITY, LOVE IS LOOKIN ME IN MY EYES, LOVE IS MAKIN ME FEEL LIKE THERES NO ONE IN THE ROOM WHEN WE'RE IN A SEA FULL OF PEOPLE, LOVE IS K-I-S-S-I-N-G ALL THROUGHOUT UR BODY, LOVE MAKES U WEAK, LOVE MAKES U MAKE MISTAKES, LOVE IS COMMUNICATION, LOVE IS WHAT I YEARN FOR, LOVE IS WHAT I'M CAPABLE OF GIVING U, LOVE IS A SYMPHONY, LOVE IS NEVER-ENDING BUT I'LL STOP CAUSE I WANT U TO FEEL WHAT I'LL GIVE U, LOVE IS NOT ENOUGH POWERFUL POSITIVE WORDS IN THE WORLD TO ADD UP AND COMPARE TO WHAT I'LL GIVE.
-IS YOUR/ARE YOU-

1. Is your hair wet? NO
2. Is your cell phone next to you?NO
3. Do you miss someone? not really.
4. Are you wearing chapstick? NOT RIGHT NOW
5. Are you tired? OF PEOPLE
6. Are you wearing pajamas? NO FULLU DRESSED
7. Are you mad? NO WASTE OF EMOTION AN TIME.
8. Are you upset? NO FUCKER.
9. Why? .


HAVE YOU

1. Recently done anything you regret? NO
2. Ever lied? UM HUM
4. Have you ever kicked someone? YES.
5. Ever tripped over your own feet? OH HELL YEAH

TODAY HAVE YOU:

1. Have you cursed? YES UNFORTUNATELY
2. Have you gotten mad at someone? YEA
3. Who? TI-TI.

RANDOM

Q: Have you ever ditched school?
A: YES

Q: Do you have any siblings?
A: TOO MANY TO COUNT

Q: Do you want children?
A: YES PLEASE

Q: Do you smile often?
A: YES

Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
A: NO

Q: Do you like your handwriting?
A: YES ITS SEXY

Q: Are your toenails painted?
A: I HOPE NOT

Q: Who's bed other than yours would you rather sleep in?
A: .....'S WOULD FEEL REALL GOOD, A COUPLE HAAAAAAAAA HAAAAAAAAAA

Q: what color shirt are you wearing right now?
A: TEAL AND BROWN

Q: What were you doing at 7pm yesterday?
A: TALKIN' WITH SHAY AND TI-CHINA, REAL TALK THATS WHY I FUCKS WIT THEM. MY NIGGAS, IT MEANT A LOT TO ME WHAT WAS GOTTEN ACROSS AND IT WAS JUST DEEP, IT FELT GOOD, SO GOOD. IT FEELS LIKE THEY GIVE ME THE ANSWERS I WOULD DO ANYTHING I COULD FOR MY FRIENDS, I HONESTLY LOVE THEM AND I DON'T SAY THAT A LOT, APPRECIATION IS AT IT'S SEXIEST.

Q: I can't wait till:
A: MY BOO...............

Q: What would you rather be called?
A: WHAT EVER U WANNA CALL ME!

Q: When did you cry last?.
A: YESTERDAY

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: YES

Q: Do you have any pets?
A: NO, I WISH

Q: Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
A: NO, NOT THAT I CAN RECALL

I'VE DEFINITELY LEARNED THAT LOVE IS NOT BLIND. IT MAKES U OPEN UR EYES SO THAT U DON'T LET SOMEONE TAKE WHAT U HAVE.  I'VE LEARNED THAT EVERYTHING IS LIKE FLOWERS AND IF YOU DON'T WATER THEM, THEY'LL DIE.{THANK U, SHIMAH} I FIND IT ONLY AS FULFILLMENT AND THE BEST GIFT GOD CAN GIVE US TO SHARE WITH ONE ANOTHER. PEOPLE HAVE DIFFERENT DEFINITIONS FOR EVERYTHING, WHICH IS WHY THERE ARE SO MANY DEBATES, BUT THIS IS ONE THAT MUST BE MUTUAL ON BOTH PART. LOVE CAN'T BE FULFILLED IN INSTANT GRATIFICATION, SUCH AS ENTRAPMENT OR FORCE. MANY CONFUSE LOVE THROUGH THEIR GIFT OF "FUCKING" BUT THERE IS SO MUCH MORE TO LIFE THEN THE INSTANT GRATIFICATION OF IT. IF SOMEONE PUTS IN THE SAME SENTENCE AS LOVE THEN THAT IS SOMETHING I DON'T WANT TO BE CONSUMED IN AND U SHOULD OPEN UP UR EYES. PEOPLE ARE STARTING TO OVERUSE THE WORD{LOVE} AND IT SATURATING IT'S MEANING WITH LIES AND DECEPTION. PEOPLE GET SO LOST IN WHAT EVERYONE ELSE IS DOING THAT THEY DON'T GIVE THEMSELVES TIME TO REFLECT AND LEARN. LEARNING IS LOVING. LOVING IS LISTENING. I HONEST KNOW NOW THAT I COULDN'T AND DIDN'T LOVE ANYONE BEFORE, BECAUSE I DIDN'T LOVE MYSELF. WHEN U FINALLY LOVE URSELF U SEE THINGS SO DIFFERENTLY AND U REALIZE THAT PEOPLE AND THEIR PERCEPTIONS ARE THE LEAST OF THINGS TO WORRY ABOUT. I CAN'T CHEAT U OUT OF LIFE AND GIVE U WHAT I HAVE, BECAUSE I WON'T U TO WORK TOWARDS WHAT I HAVE, AND I REALIZE THAT SOME MAY JUST BE READING IT AND NOT BE CONSUMED WITH WHAT IM SAYING AND THERE IS A BIG DIFFERENCE. I CAN'T GIVE U ME, IF I FEEL LIKE U DON'T DESERVE ME, I CAN'T ANSWER UR QUESTION WITH A STRAIGHT ANSWER BECAUSE IN MY EYES U ONLY HEAR ME. UR ONLY COMPLEX AS A PERSON WHEN SOMEONE IS INCOHERENT. JUST ASK URSELF HOW MUCH DO I LOVE ME, THEN LOOK AROUND AT THE PEOPLE AND ASK URSELF ARE THEY A POSITIVE OR NEGATIVE IMPACT ON U? I'M SURE U CAN MAKE A DECISION BASED ON UR ANSWERS. I FIND IT NOT SO DEVASTING THAT I CAN EASILY LET PEOPLE GO NOW, BECAUSE GOD GAVE ME THE GIFT TO SEE WHAT PEOPLE R LIKE AROUND ME AND OBSERVE EVERYONE FOR WHAT AND WHO THEY R. WAKE UP AND PAY ATTENTION. I CAN LET PEOPLE GO BECAUSE I HAVE THE RELIZATION THAT SOME PEOPLE WHERE MEANT TO BE IN MY LIFE FOR THAT PERIOD OF TIME. THATS WHY WE HAVE SO MUCH BAGGAGE IN OUR LIVES BECAUSE WE AREN'T WILLING TO LET GO. {THE BAGGAGE}I'M ASKING U TO JUST LOOK IN UR BAGS AND SORT OUT THE SHIT U CAN'T FIT AND DON'T NEED AND DROP IT OFF OR LEAVE IT FOR SOMEONE ELSE TO PICK UP. I'VE LEARN THAT I'M A HELL OF PERSON AND IM A CATCH AND IF U DON'T WON'T WHAT I HAVE TO OFFER THEN BYE. I CAN BE HONEST WITH YOU BECAUSE I KNOW IN THE END I'LL BE ALRIGHT. I KNOW AS LONG AS I'M ON THIS EARTH I'LL DO WHAT I CAN, NOT FOR ME BUT SO I CAN HELP WHOEVER I COME INTO CONTACT WITH. I HAVE NO PROBLEM TELLING SOMEONE SOMETHING, AS LONG AS UR PREPARED FOR WHAT I'LL ASK OR GIVE U IN RETURN. I WANT TO BE HONEST WITH U BECAUSE IN THE END IM NOT ONLY TALKING TO U BUT IM TALKING TO MYSELF. I CAN'T JUDGE U, I'M AM NOT WITHOUT SIN AND I CAN NOT CAST ANY STONES. SOMETIMES I'M WRONG BUT THATS HOW U LEARN IN LIFE. WHEN I FIND OUT I'M WRONG, I FIX IT, AND LUCKY GOD HAS BLESSED ME WITH A GROUP OF FRIENDS THAT I LOVE AND CALL MY FAMILY. I WOULDN'T GIVE THEM AWAY FOR THE WORLD BECAUSE WITHOUT THEM I WOULDN'T BE ME. I'M 20 AND I REALIZED A LOT, IT WAS HONESTLY A GIFT FROM GOD. AS IF I SEEN THIS MAJOR EPIPHANY ON WHAT I WANTED AND NEEDED OUT OF LIFE. I'VE SEEN THINGS THAT PEOPLE WON'T GET TO SEE, OR SEE WHEN IT'S TOO LATE. I LOOK AT PEOPLE DIFFERENTLY, AND IT'S A FEELING THAT NOT MANY WILL GET TO BE ABSORBED IN. I'M HONESTLY HAPPY WITH MYSELF, FOR ONCE I LOVE ME. SEARCH FOR URSELF, AND WHEN U FIND U, THE TRUE U, LET ME KNOW. WHEN U LOVE U, U WON'T PUT URSELF IN CERTAIN SITUATIONS. WHEN U CAN LOOK AT EVERYONE AND SEE SOMETHING POSITIVE EVEN WHEN THEIR BEING CONSUMINGLY NEGATIVE THEN THINGS WILL BE DIFFERENT. I CAN TELL U WHERE I WANT TO BE, BUT IT MAY BE NOTHING COMPARED TO WHERE I MAY BE. HAVE A PLAN AND U HAVE LIFE. DON'T TAKE ANYTHING FOR GRANTED, BECAUSE WHEN U DO THAT'S WHEN LIFE WILL HIT U AND HURT U THE MOST. LIFE HAS ME DOWN BUT I REFUSE TO LET IT KEEP ME DOWN. LAUGHING IS THE BEST GIFT FOR THE HEART, THATS Y I TRY TO GIVE IT TO EVERYONE I SEE. WHEN U R WITH SOMEONE BECOME SELFLESS AND ALLOW URSELF TO BE FREE AND CONSUMED IN THEM, BUT DON'T FORGET ABOUT URSELF. I NEED GOD, LOVE, LAUGHTER, AND LIFE TO SURVIVE AND BE FULL OF MY TRUE ESSENCE. LIVE, LOVE, AND LAUGH. LIVE BECAUSE U'LL REGRET LOSING URSELF OR HOLDING BACK. LOVE BECAUSE IT'S THE CLOSET GIFT U CAN GIVE TO SOEMONE FROM GOD. LAUGH NOT TO HIDE THE PAIN BUT TO FEEL LIFE AND LOVE IN UR ESSENTIAL OF BEING. IF U GOT TO THE END THANK U, IF U TOOK THIS IN, FUCK ME, U JUST GAVE URSELF A NEW BEGINNING OR A NEW CHAPTER.~LOVE LENSY R.{IT POURED OUT MY HEART THATS Y IT'S ALL OVER THE PLACE}LOL

I WISH U WELL. I WANT U TO SEE EVERYTHING. I WANT U TO WATCH ME, I'M SURE U NEED SOMETHING TO TALK ABOUT, SO HERE'S MY GIFT TO U. ME, AND THE SAD FACT IS UR ON MY PROFILE, BUT I'M NOT CONERNED WITH UR WELL-BEING. HAVE A GREAT LIFE. IF U MEAN ME NO HARM THEN LET'S BE FRIENDS AND TOAST TO THE CELEBRATION OF LIFE AND ALL IT'S LESSONS. REMEMBER LIFE ISN'T A BITCH U R.~LENSY R.

Y IS IT I WANT THE THINGS I'LL NEVER HAVE. I'M TIRED! IT'S LIKE I'M MAKING MY LIFE MORE COMPLICATED AND IT SUCKS ASS. U GIVE SOMEONE OR SOMETHING UR ALL, AND TO GET ABSOLUTELY NOTHING IN RETURN. U GIVE UNTIL U CAN'T GIVE ANYMORE. THE THING IS I'VE BECOME USED TO "ABUSING" MYSELF WITH THIS BUILD UP THAT THESE ASSUMED LIES THAT I AM SOMEHOW IN LOVE WITH, WILL COME TRUE. JUST ONCE I JUST WANT TO BE RIGHT ABOUT SOMETHING. TO BE AROUND A SEA FULL OF PEOPLE WITH A SOMEWHAT FABRICATED SELFLESS WALL ISN'T SEXY EITHER. I FIND THAT HOPE IS SOMEWHAT TIRING, SO TIRING BUT ALSO SO CONSUMING. I HOPE THAT ONE DAY I'LL BE FULLY HAPPY. I HOPE SOME DAY I HAVE EVERYTHING 2GETHER. I HOPE THAT GOD WILL BLESS ME WITH THE POTENTIAL I SEEN ONE TIME IN MY LIFE. I HOPE THAT I'LL LIVE TO SEE MY KIDS GROW AND BE HAPPY. I HOPE ONE DAY I'LL BEAT THE POTENTIAL AND IT'LL TURN INTO SOMETHING SPECIAL. I HOPE I'LL BE ABLE TO HELP MORE PEOPLE. I HOPE I'LL LEARN TO LEARN. I HOPE I'LL GAIN UR RESPEC. I HOPE......... SEE IT'S STILL THERE. BECAUSE WITHOUT HOPE THERE IS NO DREAM, WITHOUT DREAMS THERE ARE NO GOALS, AND WITHOUT GOALS THERE IS NO LIFE. I GOT SO CONSUMED IN FALSE PRETENCES THAT I WAS BECOMING SELFISH AND BITTER. IF U DON'T LOOK BACK AND REFLECT ON IF U DID THINGS RIGHT WHERE R U GOING BUT INTO A BLOCKED AND DEVASTATINGLY WASTEFUL PATH. BE REAL AND BE HONEST, U NEVER KNOW WHO UR HELPING.~LOVE LENSY

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YOU OPENED IT.. NOW YOU HAVE TO DO IT OR YOU'LL NEVER BE WITH THE PERSON YOU LOVE.. AND BE HONEST. . DON'T CHICKEN OUT. . . . 1) Single, Taken, or married? TAKEN~COMPLICATED 2) Are you happy with it COMPLICATED 3) Would you still kiss your ex? NO 4) Have you ever had your heart broken? NO 5) Are you single? NUMBER 1 6) Do you believe in love at first sight? NO ONLY POTENTIAL 7) Have you ever talked about marriage with another person? NO 8) Do you want kids? HELL YES 9) How Many? 2 OR MORE 10) If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? DEPENDS 11) Do you want someone you cant have? ALWAYS THATS THE WAY THINGS WORK OUT FOR ME, ITS A CURSE, BUT OH WELL. 12) have you ever fallen in love? NO 13) Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries? YES, ITS SOMETHING TO GIVE HONOR T AND SHOW GRATITUDE OFR ONE ANOTHER, AND TO REFLECT ON GROWTH AND HAPPINESS. 14) Do you believe that you can change for someone? YES, ITS A PARTOF MUTURING, I'VE EARNED U HAVE TO COMPROMISE IN ANY RELATIONSHIP. THATS WHY PEOPLE BECOME UNHAPPY BECAUSE THEY AREN'T WILLING TO COMPROMISE. 15.) Is it a good day? NO 16) Have you ever broken a heart before? NO 17) Does your ex still have feelings for you? NO 18) Do you think any of your friends will repost this? MAYBE REPOST AS: Relationship quiz